Birthday Reflections

It’s my birthday tomorrow.

Normally my birthday’s don’t phase me, just kind of another day but with cake at some point. But this one, is different.

I’ll be turning 22 tomorrow. Most that know my age comment, Oh, your still so young! You don’t look/act like you’re that young! While this might be true, I might be young in comparison to age/numbers. I don’t feel that age. I’ve packed a lot into my 22 years. Lots of messy, beautiful, crazy, and blessed life.

I’ve been reflecting a lot on my 22 years this week, partly because this is my last birthday with the title of Nicole, and not Mommy.

I’ve been so blessed to have so many different experiences throughout my 22 years. I’ve met so many wonderful people, fostered many positive relationships, traveled around the US and to another country, chased my dreams and married my best friend and encourager. I’ve also hurt a lot of people, said things I’ve regretted, been through the painful divorce of my parents, lived for self indulgence, and have lost contact with many.

The past 2 years have stuck out the most to me in my 22 years, not because they are the most recent, but because I have experienced SO much in the last 2 years. (For those of you just joining me, my parents divorced 2 years ago in December, then I graduated college, got married and landed my first big girl job, and we’re now expecting our first baby.)

While looking back to the ups and downs of the past couple years, I can see now that the Lord knew exactly what He was doing. As my family was falling a part, physically, emotionally and spiritually He was preparing me for something much more beautiful and eternal. He has been strategically placing several different people in my life to help encourage me and make a positive difference. First, He introduced me to my future Husband who has played an instrumental role in my walk with Christ. Second, He welcomed me into His arms on a brisk night in October where I fully gave my life to Him, and helped me to feel peace about the divorce. He whispered that no parent is perfect, except for Him, who is perfect above all things. I can count on Him until the end of my days and into eternity, even when/where my parents have failed. And 3rd, He was crafting one of the most beautiful things on Earth.. and it’s my own family, this little baby nestled inside of me.

I have learned an immense amount about relationships and family within the last couple years, that I’m not convinced I would’ve learned on my own otherwise. The Lord has been preparing my heart for this new addition to our family for a few years now, and I’m just now realizing it. I never would have dreamed 15 years ago that I would be a Mommy at 22. But, only He knows the desires of our hearts… and prepares us for the journey’s we face without us even realizing it.

For those people who have entered my life- Thank you for your individual role you have filled. Each and every one of you has helped me realize the importance and value of relationships. And for those who I’ve lost contact with, disappointed, angered and hurt you. I’m sorry for the way I treated you. I’m sorry that I didn’t realize the value in those relationships at the time and didn’t fight harder for our friendship. I pray that you have mercy on me, and forgive my actions against you.

It seems as though each year of my life gets more wonderful than the last, and sometimes I’m not sure how I can out do the previous year.

Here’s to another spectacular, messy, wonderful year. Filled with new experiences, life, love and most definitely laughter. And to my Husband- thank you for supporting, encouraging, uplifting, listening, praying, loving and guiding me in this walk we’ve started together. Let’s make this the year, our best yet.


Love to all-Nicole

Week 25 & Summer Update

I must apologize for my infrequency in my posting lately. It seems like I have the best intentions of sitting down and writing, but then I get distracted by all things baby on the internet. By all things baby, I mean… looking for a rug for our nursery, or hunting on Pinterest for different lists of things that a baby might need, or even just spacing out on Pinterest looking at recipes.. that involve zucchini, because let’s get real here people. My garden went CRAZY with zucchini- that was pretty much the only successful thing I could get to produce to satisfaction. (I had also planted cucumbers with good intention, the weeds got away from me and I thought swallowed our cucumber plants whole, Andrew went hunting in our garden forest and actually FOUND my cucumbers- a little ripe, but they’ll do!) OOFTA- sorry, little bit of a run on there.

So anyway, to catch you up on what’s been happening in life and on the farm..

Andrew planted a few acres of sweetcorn this year- just to see what that would be like. We’re (Andrew, MIL, FIL, and BIL) are finding out it’s a lot of work. (I luck out and don’t have to help much because I have to go to my day job/get too hot in this hot and humid weather we’ve been having while i’m 25 weeks into growing a watermelon.) Andrew only has time to sell it at our local produce auction- so it doesn’t bring as much as it would at a stand in town, but it works for us. We’re enjoying having the sweetcorn to eat and freeze anyway. :)

Along with being busy with the sweetcorn, Andrew has his daily work on top of it all. Choring, grinding feed, selling hogs, making fence for our cows, and tending to the crops when needed.

Like I mentioned a little bit above.. I’m 25 weeks pregnant already. How did that happen? Every day things are feeling more and more like I’m pregnant. It’s getting harder to get away with bending down, sleeping, stay on my feet for long periods of time, and let’s not forget going to the bathroom about once every hour. I actually compared my growing belly with a watermelon this week.

See- almost a watermelon.

See- almost a watermelon.

Slowly but surely, things are starting to come together for the baby’s arrival. My grandparents gifted us (baby) our first car seat and had it shipped to our house- You have NO IDEA how excited I was about the car seat. What a weird thing to be excited about..

I have a few showers coming up within the month of August, my birthday, the Iowa State Fair, Andrew’s sisters coming to visit and a trade show for work. I have a feeling August is going to fly by faster than July. So ready or not, baby is going to be here before we know it! We’ve been praying for the safe arrival of the baby, and I’m also hoping that it’ll come right when it’s supposed to- because any earlier we’ll be running into harvest on the farm. It’s not a huge deal- we would obviously work around it and make it work, but.. it would be nice to just have that finished up by then!

So anyway, that’s what’s been going on around here. Hope you all are having an awesome summer!

Love to all-Nicole

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